I know I love you

because when I think

of you my heart feels full,

a pool choked with water hyacinth.

Thirsty roots reaching deep

into beds of  longing

overflowing walls of  need

where I am so afraid to fall .

Because I love you I forfeit my privilege,

drown in you  as though you are liquid.

Vincent Van Gogh

205 thoughts on “because I love you”

  5. I love the fluidity of this piece… And it goes so very well with that Van Gogh painting. It sent me back to “At Eternity’s Gate”. A movie I warmly recommend if you like the painter 🙂

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  12. OH. MY. GOD. Holly. I felt this one down to my toes. I was holding my breath as I read your words. The imagery packs a powerful emotional high speeding train straight to the Heart. WOWOWOWOW!

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  16. Allowing your heart to drown in someone as if they were liquid, that was beautiful Rene and that’s love. To let the heart immerse into someone so they can feel your love is a wonderful thing, giving your all to them. Loved your words, pure loveliness.🌹🌹

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          2. I’m glad you are back safely , it’s not good out there in this terrible arctic blast sweeping the states up there. I’m looking forward to the next scene for ALEXANDRA. Take time for R and R though.

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          3. Yes indeed, while I felt it was springtime in Tallahasee until Tuesday’s weather dropped the temperatures, it recovered quickly. Those poor souls whacked by this artic blast is stunning. My sister told me she read a news report that the city of Hell had frozen over and I immediately thought a lot of oaths are now due. 🥶

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          4. The arctic blast across our North and Canada is stunning and very concerning. We had temps in the low 70s here and expect that again today, I hope this strange event is not an omen for an active hurricane season here. Take care, stay warm and well.

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          5. Thank you Rene and likewise for you as well. I was stunned at the deforestation in the panhandle. I drove 130 miles with moderate to severe damage and standing water everywhere. Most structures were only lightly damaged but some older buildings were destroyed from too much too close together. It was the worst I’d seen in my lifetime. Thankfully, the government says it didn’t happen so I can ignore what my eyes told me. On the good side, the forests will recover with new growth but it will be generations before we see the full recovery of nature. Along I-10 from Tallahassee to Mariana, the state is still clearing trees from the easements of the interstate. We ain’t afraid, right?

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          7. Have no fear, my dear friend. Mother nature heals herself from all wounds. She is not tied to our schedules and will not bend to our will. We fool ourselves thinking we are in control of our destiny on this earth. Those like yourself will always serve as a kind example to others. Change is slow but inevitable. It is us that will need to adapt, not nature.

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          9. Yes it has always been so. Our sun has 10 billion years of fuel left and that is enough for 10 complete restarts for earth. Our minds can’t fathom the dramatic changes that occur over 100 million years of earth time, but Mother Earth is not constrained by our lack of foresight and understanding. What we face is not total destruction, but total change. If we adapt, we will embrace and survive that change much like our ancestors did. Don’t fear or regret it, you have a young son learning how to be a pathfinder and he’ll know the way. He has a fine and noble heritage behind him.

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          11. This is true, Rene and the source of many adventures. I’m not going to sign up for the Mars trip. I’ll wait until they find a new lovely and lush planet and sign up for pioneer duties. It should be fun. 😉

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          13. Waa haa haaaa! I’ve tried desert living and I didn’t like it. Mars seems a little too deserty to me. I want to try temperate forests with lots of happy flora and fauna. Nothing too hungry and toothy. I may be too picky tho…

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          1. Thank you Holly, just about to turn off the laptop, My wine has now been poured and the film Avatar is about to be watched again.. But worth the watch with its hidden messages ..
            Thank you dear Holly.. Much LOVE and well wishes back my dear friend.. ❤ speak soon xx ❤

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      1. I’ve seen that on some posts. That’s fine. You still take the time to post almost every day. That is great.
        I hope it is a good “busyness”. (As I listen to Johnny Cash’s “I walk the line”!) (By chance)
        Bon week-end Coeur de Feu.

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          9. Oh. Yes. That too.
            Daughter #1 who’s a doctor at the National Cancer Institute always bitches that the (other) doctors (and surgeons) almost never get their shots! Grrrrr. (She’s an infectologist)

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          11. Daughter’s hypothesis is that it is arrogance. 🙂
            (But then she gets mad, because you can imagine patients in a cancer ward, are all immunodepressed and very susceptible to any germs.
            That and (not) washing hands… 😉

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          13. I know. And people have become even more stupid. There is a rash of not vaccinating children in France. So measles is on the rise there too. As for flu, I think there have already been 1,000 casualties in France since the beginning of the year. 8I caught the whooping cough on a plane back form Paris two years ago. No-one could figure it out!) 😦

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          14. Parents are spooked about the Autism thing and afraid of vaccines. When I was a school kid and In college we had to have our vaccine records to be admitted. It’s too dangerous now , so many people are susceptible !

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          15. I’ve said it over and over again, the words of Shakespeare always come to my mind:
            “Folly and ignorance, the common lot of mankind…”
            I mean, Autism is a very serious condition, but what is the incidence of it?
            Do you want your kid to catch polio? I remember an American friend of ours, he was the Ambassador to the African country we were living in. He caught polio at 40-45. Nearly died. Tsss.

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          16. I don’t know if there is any correlation but everything has risks. Back when I was a kid we never heard of Autism but of course it could have been undiagnosed. Still, we need to vaccinate our kids to make sure they don’t get a dread communicable disease , one that has returned after being wiped out by vaccinations. I recently read their have been cases of the plague fishnet in remote areas. Travel is worldwide now.

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          21. Going back in time, I think of the after war, the 50’s (Rock & Roll and antibiotics) the 60’s (Civil rights) The 70’s (Freedom). It all started to go downhill with Reagan. (Though he did play a good bargain with the Russians.)
            I remember my parent’s friends. All or most had been in the war. And I think they had seen enough horror to avoid it at all cost. So we had peace.
            Now? Nobody remembers, and we’re all ready to go at each other’s throat again. I may have said that before but I am worried. There are knife attacks in Paris almost every other week! Looks like many are carrying a knife. Seriously? In Paris?

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          23. The trAmp? He’s a nutcase. I mean, he’s going to meet Kim Jong-Un in Hanoï? Seriously? Has anybody told him about the Vietnam war? (He avoided that too didn’t he?)
            Grrr. (He makes me mad!) Anyway, enjoy sunny Florida. Will you go to the beach?

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          31. I know. I’m curious to see what he invents tomorrow, after the little fat man screws him over, as he did in Singapore.
            Look: he will fall out of his own stupidity. Sooner or later. (Fingers crossed)

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          39. He has a very bad case of separation anxiety and when I came home he has scratched his ear and cause a hematoma in it. I took him to the vet and she drained it, put him on antibiotics. He’s a pathetic and sweet little soul. Love him so much! thank you Brian!

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          44. Not ‘ny more. We had a Beagle for a dozen years. (She was supposed to be for daughter 2 but of course, she left her with us.) Crazy “buggers” Beagles are, but very nice. Then we “inherited” a cat when my father died. She didn’t even have a name. My father lost all interest in pets when my mother passed. So I called the cat Miao DzeDong. She spent the rest of her life happy with us.
            Won’t have any more pets. It’s always such a heartbreak when they die. 😦

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