Vita Sackville-West had many lovers. Virginia Woolf was but one.
An English author and garden designer as well as a successful novelist, poet, and journalist, prolific letter writer and diarist, Vita would describe her onetime lover and lifelong friend as “the loveliest mind and spirit” she ever knew and “a loss which can never diminish.”
“I am reduced to a thing that wants Virginia…It is incredible how essential to me you have become,” she wrote to the novelist in 1926. A popular writer herself Sackville-West proclaimed her love for Woolf during the most intense years of their romantic relationship in the 1920’s. Both married to men, they penned hundreds of poetic love letters to one another and their affair inspired Woolf’s most celebrated work Orlando in 1928.
In an eighty page autobiography-cum-confessional discovered in the tower of Sissinghurst castle (purchased in 1930 with her husband Harold Nicolson where they maintained a happy if unconventional marriage) she writes that her mother called her “ugly” and told her she could not bear looking at her. Later in life she withdrew into the solitude of her garden.
Nicolson Wrote in his novel Portrait of a Marriage, “she was always in love. I do not know of any moment in her life when she was not longing to see or hear from the only person who could satisfy that longing”.
Portrait of a Marriage
Early Bird Books
Written by Vita to Virginia Wolfe
Milan [posted in Trieste]
Thursday, January 21, 1926
I am reduced to a thing that wants Virginia. I composed a beautiful letter to you in the sleepless nightmare hours of the night, and it has all gone: I just miss you, in a quite simple desperate human way. You, with all your un-dumb letters, would never write so elementary phrase as that; perhaps you wouldn’t even feel it. And yet I believe you’ll be sensible of a little gap. But you’d clothe it in so exquisite a phrase that it would lose a little of its reality. Whereas with me it is quite stark: I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal. So this letter is just really a squeal of pain. It is incredible how essential to me you have become. I suppose you are accustomed to people saying these things. Damn you, spoilt creature; I shan’t make you love me any the more by giving myself away like this—But oh my dear, I can’t be clever and stand-offish with you: I love you too much for that. Too truly. You have no idea how stand-offish I can be with people I don’t love. I have brought it to a fine art. But you have broken down my defences. And I don’t really resent it …
Please forgive me for writing such a miserable letter.
I am only one, only one, only one. Only one being, one at the same time. Not two, not three, only one. Only one life to live, only sixty minutes in one hour. Only one pair of eyes. Only one brain. Only one being. Being only one, having only one pair of eyes, having only one time, having only one life, I cannot read your M.S. three or four times. Not even one time. Only one look is enough. Hardly one copy would sell here. Hardly one. Hardly one.
Many thanks. I am returning your Manuscript by registered post. Only one M.S. by one post.
Miss Gertrude Stein,
27 Rue de Fleurue,
The haters are out there. Twisted soldiers of darkness, leaders of dread. . . naïve as it seems, I never imagined there would be deniers of dreams yelping like the rabid audience of a Springer show.
Once again the president has chosen to divide and conquer. Rather than address the vital issues of our country and the world, he attacks peaceful protesters of the sports world (yes, I said sports world) via Twitter like the 71 year old petulant child that he is, a vulgar boor, calling names, shouting “fire the Son of a Bitches” before the world. yet he rushed to defend the KKK, neo-nazi’s, white supremacist violent protest in Virginia while denouncing the push back as “on the same level” as these dark elements that until he set the bar for violence and bullying had for the most part remained under their rocks. Meanwhile he goads a madman…placing himself at the same level.
The president has hijacked a sacred symbol…our flag and used to it to distract from the real issues facing our country and to appeal to his base. He has spent his time twittering about the NFL players “taking a knee”, an obvious effort to distract once again from his ongoing legal issues. Puerto Rico is in a dire situation, millions of American citizens desperately needing help and the attention of the president following the devastation of Hurricane Maria. Trump finally addressed that issue today on Twitter showing no compassion to speak of. Addressing the bad infrastructure in Puerto Rico and mentioning the issue that exists concerning PR and wall street. Cold.
In an interview with Ryan Lizza, The New Yorker ’s Washington correspondent Wednesday. Scaramucci did not ask to be off the record.
“I’m not Steve Bannon, I’m not trying to suck my own cxxk,” he said, speaking of Trump’s chief strategist. “I’m not trying to build my own brand off the fucking strength of the President. I’m here to serve the country.”
“The issue is I believe Priebus had been worried about the dinner because he hadn’t been invited. “Reince is a fucking paranoid schizophrenic, a paranoiac,” Scaramucci said. He channelled Priebus as he spoke: “ ‘Oh, Bill Shine is coming in. Let me leak the fucking thing and see if I can cxxk-block these people the way I cxxck-blocked myself for six months.’ ”
*Reince Priebus: White House Chief of Staff
*Steve Bannon: Chief strategist for the White House
Donald Trump’s new communications director exploded the white house chaos into a full-fledged conflagration Thursday, angrily daring Trump’s chief of staff to deny he’s a “leaker” and exposing West Wing backstabbing in language more suitable to a mobster movie than a seat of presidential stability.